Monday, March 15, 2010

monday (with a post-edit)

I had another health setback yesterday.

Today I shuffled around the house in my hideous gray sweats and turquoise waffle shirt, sans bra. I let the house stay messy and thought a lot.

I read the perfect article for me today. It was all about life's trials. After reading it, I thought a lot about my attitude for the past 7 months. I don't think I've been 'Why me?' about my health, but I have definitely felt like 'it's a righteous desire to want to be healthy. when will i be?'

A little impatient, perhaps.

Today I am want to say,

Dear God,
Thank you for my life. I am mostly healthy and today I have no pain. I have sunshine and daffodils. I have two little boys in blue jammies digging in the dirt and eating yogurt on the front porch and giggling and chasing each other and exuding love and life. I have my husband home again. Falling asleep with his arms around me again is the best feeling in the whole world. I will be grateful for what I have and trust in your timing for me and my family.

"No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God...and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire."
--Orson F. Whitney
*post-edit: Taylor says I have to stop being so cryptic about my health problems so everyone doesn't think I'm dying. I have something wrong with my urinary tract and no one can figure it out. It's sometimes painful, mostly frustrating.


Kate said...

Oh Anne, I'm sorry your body is still giving you trouble! I'm really sorry. I know you'd rather have things go differently. (of course!) I'm hoping things look up but you seem to have a lovely attitude about it all. Love you.

And ps. your boys are to die for darling!

Christina said...

That's so frustrating - I hope that you are able to get well soon.

And I can't believe how big Roger is - what a sweet picture.

families are forever said...

Anne, said a prayer for you this morning, hope you are well soon! love ya

Rebecca said...

I am so confused a posted a comment put I can't find it now or some of the other ones I read. Where did they go?

brittani c. said...

I know a couple of ladies who have unsolved medical issues. Those dang physicians! I hope you find a solution. Lots of love.

Sugar... said...

Eek! I hate the urinary tract! Me and mine have had some moments as well! I hope you get feeling better. No fun.

Nikki Douglas said...

Anne, after Bekah was born I had tons of issues with my U.T. If you ever feel like venting or anything else, don't hesitate. nicolebdouglas at gmail dot com. My urologist told me not to get pregnant for awhile because of the issues, but now after my second kid I finally feel normal again. But it took long-term meds and drinking lots of water for a few years. But best thing I did was see a naturopath that I knew I could trust. I feel for you. I too can also look back and see part of why I needed to go through that cause I wouldn't be here enjoying my kids as much otherwise. Thinking of you.

Joan said...

Urinary Tract issues are MISERY. I totally understand how you feel, Anne.
Good News: my B.I.L has a formula that he created himself for UTI's -- it a homeopathic remedy. I will buy you a bottle or two and ship it to the blue house because I love you...and your urinary tract :) tee hee.